14.4.06

O Sacred Head, Now Wounded

O sacred Head, now wounded,
With grief and shame weighed down,
Now scornfully surrounded
With thorns, Thine only crown;
O sacred Head, what glory
What bliss ’til now was Thine
Yet though despised and gory
I joy to call Thee mine

What Thou, my Lord, hast suffered,
Was all for sinners’ gain;
Mine, mine was the transgression,
But Thine the deadly pain.
Lo, here I fall, my Savior!
’Tis I deserve Thy place;
Look on me with Thy favor,
Vouchsafe me to Thy grace.

The joy can never be spoken,
Above all joys beside,
When in Thy body broken
I thus with safety hide.
My Lord of Life, desiring
Thy glory now to see,
Beside Thy cross expiring,
I’d breathe my soul to Thee.

What language shall I borrow
To praise Thee, heavenly friend,
For this my dying sorrow,
Thy pity without end?
Lord make me Thine forever,
Nor let me faithless prove
Oh let me never, never
Abuse such dying love

Forbid that I should leave Thee
O Jesus leave not me!
By faith I would receive Thee
Thy blood can make me free
When strength and comfort languish
And I must hence depart
Release me then from anguish
By Thine own wounded heart

Be near when I am dying
Oh show Thy cross to me
And for my succor flying
Come Lord and set me free
These eyes new faith receiving
From Jesus shall not move
For he who dies believing
Dies safely, through Thy love

Bernard of Clairvaux
(1091-1153)

10.4.06

December.26.2005

I have come to the end of another year of my life. It is so amazing to look back over these 12 months of 2005 and see the amazing grace and mercy that is poured abundantly out over this life.

Oh, how my soul twists and turns within me when I think of the incomprehendable sacrifice that was made so that I, and ungrateful, unfaithful, ever failing, miniscule human girl could approach such a holy deity. I am incapable of coming to grips with... Oh, I cannot even begin to write words that come close to giving this... act... and adequate explanation or description. All I can think of is an earthly word, with a divine, never fully comprehended definition. Love. That is it.

Love

It is an undying, ever giving, continually deepening, willingly sacrificing kink of unearthly love. It is the kind you only experience from such a perfect divinity as belongs only to the God of three. It is a love that I have experienced.