i've moved!

To whom it may concern,

I am posting to inform you of my recent change in location.
Please, update your books with my new address:

andie jael
cloudno9.tumblr.com

Feel free to write me, or drop by at any time! I would love to share a story and a cup of tea with you.

Much love,
me

i sing the
alphabet in my
head when i
look up a word
in the
dictionary.

i am called to live for
so much more than
stifling trivialities.

god, help me.

we sing the same song. we are in a different keys.

beware of producing an ishmael while waiting for an isaac.

well....
it cannot be hidden.
i
have
a love affair
with
a
cuban
cortadito...

the monosyllable of the clock is

loss
loss
loss
loss
loss

unless you devote your heart to its opposition.

“I like living. I have sometimes been wildly, despairingly, acutely miserable, racked with sorrow, but through it all, I still know quite certainly that just to be alive is a grand thing.”

—	Agatha Christie

lost in translation.

the hebrew word, 'shalom' has so much meaning that is lost in translation. we translate it simply as 'peace,' but the english word is basically negative, referring only to the absence of trouble and hostility. the hebrew word means much more than that... it means absolute wholeness, full, harmonious, flourishing life.

no, 'peace' just doesn't encompass completeness, wholeness, heath, welfare, safety, soundness, tranquility, prosperity, perfection, fullness, rest, harmony and absence of discord.

this brings new light to, "sar shalom"...

.... prince of shalom.

.if it ends well, it will be a fairytale.

"i am able..."

yikes.
what a tragic
lack of perspective
on my part.

lord, i pray that you would be my supreme treasure. i ask that i would be able to say your loving kindness is better than life. that i would believe that nothing can separate me from the love of God. that i would rejoice in your goodness, beauty, grace and kindness in the midst of difficulty and suffering, pain and heartbreak. i ask, that by your spirit, i would love and adore you more than anyone or anything else.

tee-ta-lee-hoo....... tee-ta-lee hoo....... ta ta ta...

last night i was awakened by the song of the mocking bird.

shrill.
repetitive.
strange.
imitating.

his song hung in the air.

he was an echo of everything around him
yet had not a single original composition to offer.

he sat on his high branch,
devoting himself to repeating
and perfecting the recital of every dream but his own.
he sat alone
pretending to be everything he is not.


i feel like a mocking bird.

jesus...

is the son of God,
is the heir of all things,
is the sustainer of the universe,
is the creator or the world,
is the radiance of God's glory,
is the exact representation of God's nature,
is the high priest of perfection,
is seated at the right hand of majesty,
has a more excellent name,
is the one whom the angels worship,
is the exalted King,
is the Lord of righteousness,
is the anointed one,
is the eternal, unchanging one and the ultimate conqueror!
is crowned with glory and honor,
is the one for whom all things exist,
is the one who rendered the devil powerless,
is our deliverer,
is our helper,
is a merciful and faithful high priest,
is the one who is able to help the tempted!
is worthy of more glory than Moses,
is a faithful son,
is our sabbath rest,
is the sinless and enthroned one who brings us near!
is the perfect one,
is the source of eternal salvation,
is our hope,
is the anchor to our souls,
is sure and steadfast,
is the forerunner into heaven for us!
is our Lord,
is an indestructible life,
is a better hope,
is the guarantee of a better covenant,
is the one who abides forever,
is the one who lives to make intercession for us,
is the one who is holy, innocent, undefiled, separate from sinners, exalted above the heavens,
is the one who offered himself once and for all,
is seated at the right hand of the throne of the majesty on high,
is the one who gives better promises,
is the one who obtained eternal redemption for us,
is the one without blemish,
is the one who's blood cleanses our consciences,
is the one who puts away sin,
is the one who shall appear again,
is the all sufficient sacrifice,
is the one who perfects those who are sanctified,
is the author and finisher of our faith,
is the one who endured the cross for the joy set before him,
is the discipler of those who love him,
is the judge of all,
is the blood that speaks better than Abel's sacrifice,
is the one who will never leave us or forsake us,
is the same yesterday, today and tomorrow,
is the one whom through we praise God,
is our great shepherd,
is the one to whom be the glory forever and ever.

this is my Jesus, as seen in the thirteen chapters of Hebrews.

thank you jesus,

that you picked me. even though i was hard to see.
for making it rain the other evening. i needed that raindrop lullaby.
for your reassuring promise to provide. 'cause, i might freak out if it was on me.
for paneras. it's a good place to meet with friends.
for my milk frother. it makes me quite happy.
that you used me to encourage someone this week. i was blessed.
for being in control. i am out of control.
that you gave me eyes that see. there is so much to see.
for my beautiful, new bible. it smells nice.
for chocolate. because, otherwise, i would always have an unsatisfied craving.
for my insecurities. they keep me down to earth.
for css. 'cause, html just doesn't cut it.
that my cat likes to snuggle. 'cause i need a snuggle buddy sometimes.
for my dad. he reminds me of you.
that you love me. 'cause, i don't love me.

I have learned now that while those who speak about one's miseries usually hurt,
those who keep silent hurt more.

not in vain

He is for those betrayed by love and deserted by joy... for those enshrouded by darkness and stricken by pain... for those imprisoned by hopelessness and cast deep into despair... for those robbed of dignity and worth.... for those crushed and broken and forgotten...

so that they too might sing and soar... and know that they have not lived and suffered in vain...

But that they may know that there is beautiful purpose and joy in the midst of the dismal destitution of the soul and mind.

jesus, restore and revive my soul.

You must believe that God is separate from the world
and that some of the things we see in it are contrary to His will

{ clive lewis }